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I was so bugged today that I made one more Appu...

Peace Vs Piece

Till now I was always under the impression that I have tremendous patience. I also assumed that I did not lose my temper easily. Ya, few episodes of irritation occure but that is all. But now it seems that someone(who so ever that is...God/Humans/Aliens/Supernatural Powers/My Fate/etc) has taken up this challenge to prove me wrong...to make sure that I lose...that I accept that my assumptions were/are wrong...UGHHH...Yeh toh meri teesari aankh khulwake hi dum lega!

Life's full of ups and down....suna toh tha...dint know that there were twists and turns as well with the dead ends and sometimes a cross junction. I am so SICK and EXASPERATED of the things that are happening to me cause they just refuse to leave me alone. I WANT TO BE ALONE.....and at peace!!!

Come on Man! I cant be the chosen one, can I? Perhaps I am already! I am a person who always followed a simple policy of,'Live and Let Live!' but the stuff that revolves around me does the exact opposite...to me! 'Hum toh jeeyenge bhaiiya... par tumko nahi jeene denge!" GRRRRRRRR......

I feel like holding a bat(not the flying mammal) in my hand and smashing everybody's butt who so ever comes in my way to messup with me. I know I sound violent and thats exactly NOT what I am but like I mentioned at the beginning, there is something who doesnot want me to be the way I am...Simple...Patient...and a Genuine Person!! Yes and said GENUINE!!!

So now what??? I dont know what to do? Should I surrender and say, "aao aur meri bajaake jaao" or should I rebel like I have always and achieved nothing" If Life's a test then I have done my PHD's...AB Bas... I dont want to give any more exams...and even if I am left with no choice then atleast let that test be of my stream. 'Hindi ki jagah Maths ka paper solve karna is a big time trauma!'

I dont feel like speaking with anyone right now and thats the reason I am writing my feelings out. My fingers are doing the talking. Its not that I will take out my anger on people but its just that I want to be alone. I dont want sympathies and allegations. I dont want to please or impress anyone. I dont want to adjust for anyone now. I dont want to be understanding anymore. I dont want to meet anyone. I feel like diving into a lake(...okay I am not thinking of commiting suicide!) Cmon!!! I am not a loser! I just need peace. Need to get into a different medium of life where I can hear noone..see noone...speak with noone...(temporarily)

I surely dont want to turn into a monk...never had any ferrari! Okay now thats a bad one!

Happy New Year!

Wish you a very
Happy New Year!

May all your troubles last as long as your New Year's Resolutions!

Haathi aur Chinti

Haathi and Chinti jokes always fascinated me. So I made my own version, 'The Appu and the Mungi', where I have reversed the gender. Appu is a 'she' elephant with a 'he' ant, Mungi. :)

My latest 'To Do List'

My latest To Do List:

1. Make Paper Flowers
2. Start Gardening. (What an irony)
3. Start making DIY things. (Like What???)
4. Start swimming again(Who's going to get up early in the morning!)
5. Start photography again
6. Visit Konkan and Goa (again)
7. Learn ink and brush paintings
8. Visit Greece
9. Bungee Jump
10.Make paintings for Mom and Grandpa
11. Recycle paper
12. Learn classical music

...and the list never ends...

Since last few days, I am getting these weird 'jhatkaas' (hit by a wave). I get these sudden bursts of energy to try out so many vague things at one go. At one moment I feel like having a kitchen garden and when I actually start planting seeds, I am again hit by another wave of inspiration of making paper flowers!

Yesterday I wanted to visit Konkan for photography(which I stopped doing due to my work load...actually I got sick of it.) Then I thought of buying a new DSLR since my SONY doesnt give me desired results all the time. I started to surf the net for Canon 1000D(Suggested by my best friend) The camera looked decent and Swoosh....I was again hit by this wave of making pizza dough at home. I tired making it twice and both times I ended up making a white hard rock!

Few days back, I got a jhatka of following Baba Ramdev's yoga techniques for weight loss and in the evening I managed to finish a medium size cheese burst pizza all by myself.

Last night I couldn't sleep. I was so bugged that I started playing Mario on my pc. I had almost finished the level and then....I felt like playing CONTRA! So I killed myself purposely(In mario offcourse) and started playing Contra. When my soldier died, I stopped the game and started playing Mario again and then again started playing Contra. This must have happened 4 times. I realised that I had gone insane. So I switched off my PC and went off to sleep.

Few days back, I told my uncle that I will be coming with him to the swimming pool at 6 in the morning. The previous night I kept my costume and cap ready. Set the alarm of 5.30am. The next morning I wokeup on my own at 5 am. Got up, washed my face. Got ready and then called him to tell him that I dont feel like coming.

Something tells me that this is not normal. Perhaps it is normal and I am experiencing this for the first time. Actually I dont know...

Right now I got this Jhatakaa of writing this post so before I could get another one, I sat down to write and managed to finish it but my jhatkaas wouldnot stop, I am sure.

My latest jhatka is to make a stop motion animated video, after looking at my friend's video. :0

Fingers Speak!

Its Sunday and I have nothing to do so I thought of starting my 'finger series' again which I had started some time ago. Here are 2 pics of my earlier 'Finger Series'.

'Suicide Note'

'Angutha Chaap'

When Boredom Strikes!

When boredom strikes me, I become cranky but when boredom strikes other people, I become a Paparazzo! I love clicking their bugged expressions.

At times people go off to sleep while waiting for their dearones on a railway platform and I use this golden opportunity for my passtime. :)

The s(naps) of boredom!

Even a dog gets bored!